05 May 2013

A Letter To My Father

When my Dad passed away over 6 years ago, my family was shattered. I couldn't bear to say goodbye and let him go. To this day I mourn and long to see him again. I wrote a letter to my Dad, things I wish I had said while he was still here, and I placed it with him, near his heart, for all eternity.

I had made a copy of the letter to keep with me and to read once in a while. I lost track of the letter though. Recently, I was going through a box and found my letter. I want to post it here so that it will always be available for me to read and I won't have to worry about misplacing it again.

My Daddy, My Daddy, My Dear Sweet Daddy

I love you, I miss you, I wish we could have more time. I had so many plans for us Daddy--trips to take, going to Agape, going out for lunch.

I thank you so much, Daddy, for who you are. I have learned so much from you. My dear Daddy who didn't have an opportunity for formal education, who grew up so poor and without basic comforts & needs, you have taught me what really matters in life. You taught me that you don't need everything to have everything. You taught me how to be a real genuine person, how to truly love in spite of hardships, how to find pleasure in such simple things, how to be humble. I will take these things with me forever & always see you in all I do. You taught me how to see through your eyes and what a truly beautiful way to see the world.

I will always & forever regret the times that I wasn't so good to you, Daddy, and wish with all my heart that I could have just one more chance to let you know how I love you and how much you mean to me. Yet another lesson learned.

What do I do now Daddy? How do I go through life without hearing the silly little things you say, without seeing you play Dr. Mario on Nintendo or solitaire at the table, without hearing you shuffle when you walk, without hearing about and seeing the little treasures you found at Agape?

I'm sorry, Daddy, I didn't appreciate you more, I will live with that pain forever. You were always so good to me & my family. I'm so thankful to have you & the kind of man you are for my father. I have been blessed.

Forever & always in my heart
Forever & always in my thoughts

I also want to keep track of the readings at his funeral mass:
1st reading (read by Shelley Lasater) Revelation 20:11-21:1
2nd reading (read by Bill Gray) Revelation 21:1-5a, 6b-7